I am in a bad place right now. A very bad place. I do NOT love my body at all. Since starting CrossFit 2 years ago, I have gained 25lbs. At first I was all, “oh yeah this is rad I’m SO strong!” But when I see pictures of myself it’s not just muscle I’ve put on. Truth told, I could definitely stand to lose some weight. The pictures below are 2 years a apart. What strikes me the most, is the weight gain in the face.
I’m not happy with my body and lately I’ve been questioning it a lot. I’d consider myself a slightly above average CrossFitter, so why am I pushing myself into this bulky (yeah, I said it) body to not even be THAT good. It certainly doesn’t help when my best friend is one of those strong skinny girls… this picture was right before she jerked 195# for a double.
The problem is… I don’t know how to lose weight. I’m paleo. But for social reasons, I’d say I cheat a little more often lately. I train really hard. I’m not sure I’m prepared to alienate my social life to go super strict again.
I’m just not sure what I am doing wrong and I feel stuck in a body I don’t love. Even worse, being single and trying to date I feel unattractive. I want to lose 10lbs and I don’t even know how to start. I’m not even sure what changes I could make. I feel helpless.